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Ocean Size: Jane’s Addiction, The Duke Spirit @ Lila Cockrell Theater, 5/7/12

Ocean Size: Jane’s Addiction, The Duke Spirit @ Lila Cockrell Theater, 5/7/12

“wish I was ocean size
they cannot move you
no one tries
no one pulls you
out from your hole
like a tooth aching a jawbone”

Certain bands will always remind me of particular times in my life. Even though I’d been a near lifelong fan, I never saw Jane’s Addiction until Spring of 2009. Thus, seeing Jane’s will always remind me of the feeling of freedom.

2009 was the year that I walked away from everything comfortable in my life, where I actively chose to do things that had always been in the back of my head but I’d always been too responsible to bring to fruition. Embarking on that whole “finding myself” thing was something I wanted to deal with during a slightly delayed quarter life crisis, because I missed it during my college years and I for damn sure didn’t want to experience it mid-life.

The main actions that set this into motion occurred just as the NIN/JA tour began. I can remember everything about those shows; the total exhaustion and pure bliss…the weather….the sunlight….what I was wearing….who I met. It was like I had shed a skin and was experiencing life in a whole different way. Everything was new and exciting; life just felt different.

That NIN/JA tour symbolizes a lot of things for me: I made a lot of crazy, selfish decisions to follow around bands I love. But even though it hurt financially- and sometimes physically and emotionally at the time- these are the moments I think about when times are bad.

I had never even heard of the Lila Cockrell theater; as I walked in I sensed it was a newish and relatively personality-free structure. As The Duke Spirit began, I was slightly aghast at how far back the band had to perform on the stage. It was enough that, sitting in the front row, I had to crane my neck to see them. Watching this British psych rock band with a bluesy female vocalist with such a large gap between us felt like I was watching a movie of the band playing. It was a strange, disorienting effect.

The last time I had seen Jane’s Addiction was at the Roxy with Duff McKagen on bass and girls swinging from their skin. It was one of the most rock ‘n’ roll nights of my life. It was also the beginning of what I hope to be one of the worst periods of my life. The music; it’s there for you in the best of times and the worst of times.

Read my recap of the show on the GRAMMY Set List blog here.

As I watched the band’s personality shine through despite the odd stage setup, I wondered what happened to that feeling of freedom. It’s amazing how different something feels when it’s new; I have the same freedom now, but it’s almost….suffocating. Is it possible to be too free? Those traditional conventions of what life is supposed to be like came creeping back in, and I question everything. Everything.

“I want to be
as deep
as the ocean
mother ocean
some people tell me
home is in the sky
in the sky lives a spy
I want to be more like the ocean
no talking
all action….
no talking
all action….”


    Jane’s must be the crisis band. I saw them just this year, and I’m 41! And I was VERY impressed. When a lot of bands are charging $150 for a ticket and not bringing much of a show, Jane’s Addiction only charged $50 and brought the most immense show I’ve seen since the `80’s. I also got to shake Perry Farrell’s hand when it was over (great people skills, that guy). Also, the amazingly gorgeous Asian girl who dances behind them is Perry’s wife!

      I know- Etty! Yes, Jane’s is a great band…glad you got to see them!!

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